New Obsession!

For the first time in my life I feel that I need to reduce my weight and change my eating-habit. I like to eat...a lot! literally a lot! I don't have any specific time to eat like breakfast-lunch-dinner, I eat at anytime i want to. And... this habit is unfortunately supported by the magz where I work for--I have to do the food review! Subsequently, my weight raise dramatically... it used to be okay, i didn't get affected or even bothered by my increased weight and my bulky look, up until week ago when I felt that I'm too fat and on the top of it I don't feel fit at all... it's like a wake-up call to me! So now I've became a part of these sick women who are obsessed with their weight! Ohhh... and it's pretty much suffering you know, I've been struggling to reduce my appetite and eat healthy food and... it's not easy. It's really need a commitment, some times I pity myself and it leads to excuses..in which in the end I eat junk food again and eat in irrational time and frequent. Besides, another funny part is I want to become pretty as in beautiful! Yeah... and don't ask me why! Somehow I just have a thought that I want to have a sort of memory in the future that I once beautiful and owning kind a "golden age" u know... so hilarious, isn't it ? Well...let's just see how long I can handle this pressure and become a pretty much a wacko! But then again who knows after this I transform to such a hottieeeeeeee! muahahahahahaha!Oh Gosh!