airy head !

have i told u that i am working on three magz at the same tme now ? yeah... the strangest thing is i dont feel depress! I love it in fact... hmm again maybe it's because of the rainy season! met some nice sources lately too =) indeed have made things easier for me. I miss to read a lot though, feel so stupid lately.. u know when u get used to feed ur soul with books then when u don't have a time even to touch a book or "magz" like newsweek or time u'll feel like you are the most idiot people on the earth??? u even feel that u forget to insert ur brain in ur head ? that's what i feel, airy head!!! poor me!

Screw, i dn't want to be dull u know... think i really need to make time to read something highbrow huhuhuhu! Am going to interview a prominent TV anchor and Editor next week [don't want to mention her/his name] excited and damn nervous at the same time. U know as a journalist u don't want to look stupid in front of other journalist even she/he more senior than you... you don't want to ask stupid questions... things have to be perfect u know! need to prepare it days before... gonna be great, i know it! finger cross for this! no airy head to be sure!

in love

i think i'm in love with this life... =)
i don't have a perfect life obviously, yet i am amazed with this life has to offer.
and the top of it is i have the reason to wake up every morning, and i think that is the most important thing in life.
i have something that i look forward, something that keeps me moving on.
this life has been teaching me a lot! and I started to understand that the heart of life is good, even when we were in our deep shit. Dunno, maybe it's because the rainy season is coming in which makes my heart warmer.

My birthday is approaching too... I always love November, sweet and romantic.
In fact, I have successfully made a friend with my wounds and my scars. People say, one of the good theraphies to overcome your fear or hatred is to confront it extremely, and I did. I feel good and fine now... the strangest thing is, even the air smells like lavender =) seriously... ohh I love the rain most !!!!

Planing to visit my bf end of this year, spend x-mas and new year in the winter scene, hmm miss that really! hopefully it gonna works as it has planned [finger cross] can't wait to see him and winter...wooohoooo...xxxx

Thinking about my birthday, damn it's stressful! "how old are you ?" "have u married?" "why, what are you looking for?" "you are a woman,.." "look at your friends they are all married" "remember you are getting older" "think about ur parents don't be selfish" yada yada yada... I talked with my friend I said to him "look this year will be my last birthday as a single. Next year i'll celebrate my birthday as Mrs someone." He laughed so much! and said with a grined, "looking forward to that day." Hey, I'll get married eventually u know... why people think I dont really "in" to marriage, is it stamped in my forehead ?

Hmm, well I'm not really worried bout that at this moment, I'm enjoying my ride with its ups and downs. I have a good job, doing what I love to do, I have very nice and lovable bf, I have the best mother and brother ever, I have gorgeous friends, I am in the place where I have always wanted to be and I believe it will takes me further up.

So yeah, why don't we just swing this life ??

an easy weekend

it's nice u know to have a simple and easy weekend... just being lazy and enjoying the life =)
spent my saturday by watching dvds [the motorcycle diary and I could never be your woman] while having davidoff coffee and mini voglie.... i can even imagine its fine aroma now, nice... =p hot showered with lavender, calming and soothing indeed...then talked with a friend of mine bout his blackjack theory [yeah, whateva mate..] kind a adventour of the solitudes hahahaha... two adult 'n single people who prefer to spend their weekend at home, being lazy instead of hitting the night crowd and play the blackjack... hmm... ironic! still we claimed we were enjoying our life... but i am actually... some simple things that make this life different... and content, to be honest.

and today, went around Kuningan just to breath the rain...so nice u know, i love the rain most, romantic and melacholic i can felt my creative energy was blasted! watched another dvd, i am sam... was very good. very very good moreover with all the beatless songs in it, wow! i didnt have a clue why i just watched it now, where was i ? hehehehe...
and now... with the flying fox smell in my body i am more that ready to work... =)

life is good, when you know how to treat it...
sometimes all you need is merely a simple lil thing to make ur life blissful.

=)

serenada tua

suatu hari di bulan tua... beberapa tahun yang lalu...
di sebuah bus yang melaju ke kota tua nan cantik, Edinburgh namanya.
sendiri
kuamati daun-daun yang beterbangan tertiup angin kencang siang itu
udara dingin dan aku terbalut rapat dalam coat coklat tua berlapis bulu tebal.
iya ini bulan tua, sudah menjelang musim dingin.
daun-daun pun kuning menua
berguguran, menambah romantis jalan-jalan di negeri yang amat sendu ini.
The Long and Winding Road dari The Beatles menemani mesra dari sebuah mini i-pod berwarna pink.
melancholic.

setelah hampir dua jam,

di sebuah kedai kopi di daerah Berwick upon Tweed bus berhenti.
angin kencang... udara pun tampak tak mau bersahabat
boots kulit coklat yang kukenakan tak mampu menahan dingin.

secangkir hot chocolate dan Royal Edinburgh shortbread fingers terhidang cantik di atas meja kayu oak tua
kuseduh pelan.
daun kuning dan coklat menghujaniku.
bulan ini memang sudah sangat tua.

ketika itu, aku berpikir tentang hari ini.
sebuah masa di mana aku merindukan daun kuning menua ini.

tak lama bus kembali berjalan,
melanjutkan sisa rute, menuju ke kastil tua di tengah kota Edinburgh.
daun daun gugur itu beterbangan tertiup deru knalpot bus.
melayang dan jatuh.
seperti masa... yang juga menguning.

Edinburgh castle... tua namun tetap anggun,
cantik di tengah kota yang dipenuhi manusia dari ragam jagat

kastil tua, daun tua, bulan tua,...
hatiku juga menua dalam kisaran masa yang berputar bak labirin,
menyesatkan.

namun ketuaan-ketuaan itu membawa damai
seperti kastil tua yang menjadi saksi polah-tingkah manusia manusia berabad-abad
seperti daun tua yang menghijau-kuning-coklat dan gugur dalam keromantisan
seperti bulan tua yang menyisakan pembelajaran dan pendewasaan

rasanya duduk di bulan tua di kota tua nan cantik Edinburgh dan dihujani daun-daun tua adalah sebuah serenada hidup yang klasik dan merdu seperti waltz.

dan aku amat rindu dengan senandung waltz itu.