10 years

where would I be for the next 10 years ? Somehow this question popped-up in my mind... whether I would be stuck here in Jakarta or somewhere else... whether I remain a writer or someone else...whether I would have children and being someone's wife or stay alone and synical... whether I grown up or stuck in my past ? questions after questions after questions. The thing about plan is we never plan an unexpected thing... U know that most of the times we can't have it all ? and learning to accept that we get what we need instead of what we want is pretty difficult. Pretty good things are rare and hard to find. What I'm doing today, apparently will shape to be another me in the future... in the next ten years.Yet, still I do many silly things in my life... waste many hours doing
something useless and meaningless. Thinking about the past, linger with the anger... I really want to believe that I'm moving on... cos I seriously do not interested on going back. It is true that I have some highlights during the past. but it was past... 'n that's why I am what I am today. I am way from perfect today, of course,
yet I've been through lot of things and I thankful for that. Ten years ago, I was in high school...in Yogya..
I remember I was happy during those times. What I know for sure at that moment I didn't have a mind that I'll be in Jakarta, being a writer and have Albanian boyfriend. I didn't even plan these or even think about these.
I was so playful... I could just go out in a strange place along with the strange crowd and I could easily blend with 'em without difficulty and being a spotlight.Now ? I am a total solitude... and I'm okay with it. So, when I'm thinking about the next ten years... I think I'll be content for discovering another part of my self which might I never even thought about it. What would you be in the next 10 years ?