a matter of trust

how easy are you to trust people ?
me ? hmmm so damn difficult. I am very hard person but once I decided to trust people, I'll trust him/her whole-heartedly, and once I've got betrayed... bye bye! Well for me it's very reasonable 'cos I am a loyal person since i do realise that it is hard for me to trust and find someone who really can feed my soul, that's why I don't have much best friends and I tend to stuck with the same person for a very long time. And therefore I take care of them...
I experienced betrayal for couple of times in my life, by some people surround me, even by people who I used to considered as best friend or lover. Hurt ? indeed.
The thing about betrayal is, I had never prepared for that, I hail people whom I love. And when the reality bites, it's oh so damn painful. Most of the times, I choose not to get involve with those people who betrayed me, I just can't live with the fake hypocrite people. I hence cut off the relation I had, and I did couple times. Hard at the beginning but I feel okay in the end, even more when I remember the hurt, the pain, the dissapoinment and all the shits... I think I'm not easy to forgive people and forget what they had done into my life. As far as I remember I have never forgiven people who betrayed me.
How about second chance ? I don't know... Do people really change and learn from their past ? I'm not sure.. some people just take things for granted and live with their habits. And indeed you'll never know what you've got till its gone. How about if there's no second chance ? How long will you wait for the second chance ? Will you give a chance for the second chance ? Is there any guarantee that the second chance will give you a better result? And why am I trying so hard to believe the thing that I know I can't do it ???? I am trying to trust my self that I am able to put my trust back to a person who had betrayed me in a big way! One lesson, do not expect people to trust you when you don't even know what you are doing!... and please do think the impact of your action, when you demand other people to respect you... By the end of the day, you'll get what you paid for. What goes around, comes around right ?