bitter sweet weekend

Spent the weekend to visit Hito. Went there on Sat morning with Kucrit and Nandy, was too late to be able to get into the ICU, instead we met Hito's mom. She started to share 'bout the day when Hito got accident and days before. It reveals some episodes of Hito's life that we never knew before. Fell so bad to listen to his mom, since can't do anything to make things lightener in some ways.

Afterwards, we went for very late lunch at our favourite spot, Wing's Dome- Citos. Me 'n Nandy were thinking to go back to the hospital later on together with Buncil and other Pletok's member. While we were having our brunch, we talked 'bout our crisis... "why..why and why" . To sum up, I think we are too comfortable in our zone. And I'm sure in time when one of us decided to take the next step of this life and move on (read: get married), it will break us down...

Reach the hospital around 7 pm and met some friends. Everybody went to Hito's apart from me. Decided to wait outside the ICU and asked Nandy to tell Hito that I was there. It's just one of my thing that I don't see family or friend during their intensive treatment. Part of the reasons I reckon are caused by the trauma. Bad experience with hospital, too many bad things happened in the past. Although everybody were pushing me and trying to give some solutions so then I have a gut to see Hito but... no no no. I'm so sorry, I just can't.

Thanks God, he's getting better. He is starting to give respons everytime people around him and talk with him through his hands, although he hasn't concious yet, don't ask how is it possible, that's my question too. Further about his real recent condition, we don't know 'cos none of us are having an access to talk directly to the doctor.

The fact that many questions come up regarding to the accident is undeniable.. some friends are now trying to find out what really was going on on a day when Hito had an acc. There's no report at the police department, no witness, nobody even know who was taking him to the hospital, and why this hospital instead of the nearest one from its site, who said at firt place about how did the acc happen, and... even there isn't any hole along Cassablanca tunel as it is mentioned in its story. What happened on that day ?

When the night got old, we decided to play some tricks with our severe condition of dealing with the questions... went to Karaoke. Yes that's our ritual actually, to relieve the stress.. by sing along... embracing the bitter sweet of life.