the heart of life...

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good
(JM)

often times we see things that we don't want to see and hear things that we refuse to hear...
for the last two days, been trying to create such a positive idea in my mind and indeed it isn't an easy task to accomplish... yet I always believe the mood we in in the morning will define bit or more our mood in the remaining day. And of course we'll find billion of distractions along the day... like what I experienced yesterday... yet I insisted not to get bother with things outside... selfish and so bitchy maybe.. but I know what it is need to be done for my own sake... I have through the bad days enough... and I deserve a period of nice fine days. I successfully killed my emotions, eventually... for sure.

This morning ? I've got shocked with the death of Taufik Savalas, an entertainer. It wasn't a news that u want to hear when u just started ur day, for sure... I don't have any involvement with him.. but he was in the TV like often.. 'n it just makes u so familiar with him.. 'n I know he is a good man in some ways.. He died of car accident in Purworejo, 13 km from Yogyakarta. Innalilahi wa Innailaihi Roji'un ...

It darken my cloud this morning somehow... no no I'm not exaggerating thing, it's just u know.. u never know what will happen in the next second... u just don't know. For me personally, when I'm in-search a thing called serenity it kicks my soul... it is somehow giving me an insight ... a lesson... a purification... I don't know how to describe, but it makes me understand some sort of things in life... and it's dissolving my anger.. 'n leave an acceptance feeling that, in the end the heart of life is good.

I'm content at this moment... at last
'n for some reasons I won't let things or people distract this... I'm sorry