surrender

we may say that we cannot predict the future. this life is somehow unpredictable, one day we laugh so much the next day we cry like hell and the other day we experience the uncertain mood which is indeed annoying.

yet, there are some exact things that every human being will experience, like our circle of life. like being born and death eventually... we grow up and old, testify the new baby born and experience the lost as well... something that we don't like yet we cannot avoid it. something called it's written.

the question is how good we manage ourselves to cope with our circle of life ?

we are familiar with the word "ikhlash" or i guess in English it's called surrender or sincere.. my parents always say to go through this life with sincerity or being ikhlash for whatever we get, whatever we have to go through and whatever we have to release.. whether we like it or not. the things is we don't posses goods we thought we do.. all are from our Khaliq. it's only an entrusted.

if He think we are being "amanah" enough or trustful He'll give His "ridho" to us, and if it's not He'll taking it back.. and most of the time we are angry, mad, disappoint, frustrated.. the bottom line is we are not ikhlash and surrender ourselves unto Him.
greedy it is.

why am i so negative lately it's merely because i'm not ikhlash on walking on my life... i can't accept many issues that have been hovering around my life, i somehow confronted instead 'coz i have always thought that i deserve better and it's not supposed to be happened and series of other yada yada yada...

i've just lost my precious good yesterday, ironically this good has both intrinsic and extrinsic values. am screwed indeed... i felt so mad of course yet at the same time i found a lil voice that keep whispering my head and heart up until now that i have to be ikhlash and let it go.. maybe this good was not good for me.. maybe without i realised it i have became conceited.. maybe...

i thankful for this "warning" to be honest. maybe this is one of the ways to wake me up from this hedonism. that life isn't about haha hehe... that i really have to turn my life direction immediately, heading to the pathway that will take me to get closer to Him.

when people say there will always a reason behind any incident.
and i do believe so.

Hasbunallah wanikmal wakil... Nikmal maulana waanikman nashir..