in love

i think i'm in love with this life... =)
i don't have a perfect life obviously, yet i am amazed with this life has to offer.
and the top of it is i have the reason to wake up every morning, and i think that is the most important thing in life.
i have something that i look forward, something that keeps me moving on.
this life has been teaching me a lot! and I started to understand that the heart of life is good, even when we were in our deep shit. Dunno, maybe it's because the rainy season is coming in which makes my heart warmer.

My birthday is approaching too... I always love November, sweet and romantic.
In fact, I have successfully made a friend with my wounds and my scars. People say, one of the good theraphies to overcome your fear or hatred is to confront it extremely, and I did. I feel good and fine now... the strangest thing is, even the air smells like lavender =) seriously... ohh I love the rain most !!!!

Planing to visit my bf end of this year, spend x-mas and new year in the winter scene, hmm miss that really! hopefully it gonna works as it has planned [finger cross] can't wait to see him and winter...wooohoooo...xxxx

Thinking about my birthday, damn it's stressful! "how old are you ?" "have u married?" "why, what are you looking for?" "you are a woman,.." "look at your friends they are all married" "remember you are getting older" "think about ur parents don't be selfish" yada yada yada... I talked with my friend I said to him "look this year will be my last birthday as a single. Next year i'll celebrate my birthday as Mrs someone." He laughed so much! and said with a grined, "looking forward to that day." Hey, I'll get married eventually u know... why people think I dont really "in" to marriage, is it stamped in my forehead ?

Hmm, well I'm not really worried bout that at this moment, I'm enjoying my ride with its ups and downs. I have a good job, doing what I love to do, I have very nice and lovable bf, I have the best mother and brother ever, I have gorgeous friends, I am in the place where I have always wanted to be and I believe it will takes me further up.

So yeah, why don't we just swing this life ??