Moving... Again

SORRY PEEPS,...
AM MOVING AGAIN TO A NEW HOME----i know...i know...
...OH GOSH JUST CLICK: ninazuhadmono.com
AM GIVING UP MY OTHER BLOGS TOO, INCLUDING MULTIPLY =(

I'LL BE GLAD TO HAVE YOU THERE =)

temptation

there was one time when i said... this gonna be it.
then... the temptation is hard to resist..
and i want it more.. and i'll say "please God, one more..."
and then another more...
and i become greedy...
then,
hurt.

and there come the temptation again... and I'll say "this gonna be it."
then...
things keep circling around.

and i fell even deeper than before.

chin up

been a whirlwinding week ...
need to pick up the pieces, get up straight and stand up high...

at this point, i'm missing grey's anatomy badly for no reason... well probably because the show gives me a short of break; people do have a problem with its own level... people do have its own way on how he/she manage and cope with the problem. Some put it on hold, like me most of the time and some have a big courage to deal with it and face the unexpected.

as i said expectation makes us suffer...
expectation leaves us suffer...
The experience too often is ass backwards and upside down.


"Chin up. Put your shoulders back, walk proud, strut a little. Don't lick your wounds: celebrate them. The scars you bear are the signs of a competitor. You're in a lion fight. Just because you didn't win doesn't mean you don't know how to roar."

yogya ohh yogya...

"Untuk di Yogya kamu overqualified, plus kita tidak punya budget untuk bayar kamu... maximum hanya 20% dari ekspektasi kamu. Bagaimana kalau kamu saya tempatkan di Jakarta, kita butuh orang seperti kamu di pusat... Kamu mau?"

(..???..)

"Kalau kamu berubah pikiran, kami tunggu ya...kami akan senang mempunyai orang berkemampuan seperti kamu."

(...:D...)

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"Sudah jelas, kami tidak akan mampu menggaji Anda, nilai yang Anda minta sama dengan gaji saya sebagai Direktur di sini... tapi kami sebenarnya juga sayang untuk melepas Anda... Jadi sebagai Direktur dan Pemegang Saham di sini saya mau menawarkan alternatif buat Anda..."

(...???...)

"Bagaimana kalau saya jual saham radio ini kepada Anda sebesar 10%... nggak banyak kok hanya sekian ratus juta. Nanti Anda bisa jadi produser dan announcer dengan gaji sekian, plus Anda selaku komisaris saya tambah menjadi sekian... nanti saya juga akan menjadikan Anda sebagai Direktur untuk AE kita, dengan begitu Anda akan mendapat tambahan penghasilan yaaa kira-kira sebesar sekian... Nah, dengan begitu dalam waktu enam bulan gaji Anda akan sesuai dengan ekspektasi Anda. Bagaimana? Jadi nanti Anda berlaku sebagai Announcer, Producer, Komisaris, Direktur dan AE... dipikirkan dulu baik-baik."

(...?????????????????????????????????????????????????...)

MAN SERIOUSLY ?????

Kuingin

Pengen nyanyiin lagu ini keras-keras buat yang semalam--tepatnya tadi pagi habis sholat shubuh--mampir di mimpi dan memberi sisa senyuman pas bangun =) semoga, nggak cuma sebatas mimpi saja...

Wajar bila terucap
Namamu malam ini
Bukan sekedar tanya
Dalam diri sendiri

Serasa terlintas lalu
Wajah yang kian menawan

Saat waktu berlalu
Anginpun terasa sendu
Senyuman yang termimpi
Makin terasa kini

Serasa terlintas lalu
Wajah yang kian menawan di hati

Kuingin hanyut
Dalam pelukanmu
Kuingin cinta
Hanya dari dirimu
Kasih

Try Not To Cry

‘Ayn Jalut where David slew Goliath
This very same place that we be at
Passing through the sands of times
This land’s been the victim of countless crimes
From Crusaders and Mongols
to the present aggression
Then the Franks, now even a crueller oppression
If these walls could speak,
imagine what would they say

For me in this path that I walk on
there's only one way
Bullets may kill, bones may break
Still I throw stones like David before me and I say

You, you’re not aware
That we’re aware
Of your despair
Your nightmares will end
This I promise, I promise








I usually post this type of issue in my multiply which I haven't touched for some times... but here we go, Thursday afternoon, the weather is so hot outside, and i keep thinking about Palestinian, aha don't ask me why. Moreover, when I listen the song from Sami Yusuf and Outlandish "Try Not To Cry", feels like my heart's falling into pieces.

This is one of the reasons why I really want to work for the UN or other NGOs... I want to do something, instead of sitting here and do nothing but in grief.

I throw stones at my eyes
’cause for way too long they’ve been dry
Plus they see what they shouldn’t from oppressed babies to thighs
I throw stones at my tongue
’cause it should really keep its peace
I throw stones at my feet
’cause they stray and lead to defeat
A couple of big ones at my heart
’cause the thing is freezing cold
But my nafs is still alive
and kicking unstoppable and on a roll
I throw bricks at the devil so I’ll be sure to hit him
But first at the man in the mirror
so I can chase out the venom


Hmm, a little boy shot in the head
Just another kid sent out to get some bread
Not the first murder nor the last
Again and again a repetition of the past
Since the very first day same story
Young ones, old ones, some glory
How can it be, has the whole world turned blind?
Or is it just ’cause it’s only affecting my kind?!
If these walls could speak,
imagine what would they say
For me in this path that I walk on
there’s only one way
Bullets may kill, bones may break
Still I throw stones like David before me and I say


Try not to cry little one
You’re not alone
I’ll stand by you
Try not to cry little one
My heart is your stone
I’ll throw with you

Expectation

“No one believes their life is going to turn out just kind of ok. We all think we’re going to be great, and we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren’t met; but sometimes our expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations; because the expected is just what keeps us steady, standing still. The expected is just the beginning; the unexpected is what changes our lives.”
-Dr. Meredith Grey

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Am trying hard not to complain...and remain focus!!! I can do this...yes I can....

Clueless yet Thrill

There is a moment in my life that I feel I well-equipped on doing what I am doing. I studied hard back then, and graduated with honor. Academically, I should know bout things. Yet, when I am now starting up a business with two of my best friends, we all feel that we lack lots of things! We somehow realized that we taught to be a labor, a slave instead of being the top dog or “the man”… so not good. So… what I’ve been doing these days; stuck with the business plan, so bloody frustrating calculating the capital, finance, income, doing the market research, and etc etc… Gosh, feels like I am back to those days in class and doing dissertation, lol! It’s excited though, very much… I eventually found a courage to start my own business, well with two other friends… and off course supported by my bf who is so excited too lol...we are now in gear =) I’ve been working day and night for this to be succeed, and I really cross my fingers for that. Oh I am so thrill!

new life!

i am now settling in Yogya... well not yet settled down, frankly... but I'm trying my outmost to do so... I have a project to work on which is excellent and start to become proactive on seeking opportunities and good bye laziness lol! Since i'm working at home I realise that I have to be very determine and discipline--yeah things that sound impossible to me hehehehe... I have a goal so that's good for a change and I'm doing the thing I love to do... Yet one thing that irritate me A LOT is this f***ing IM2 broadband rips me off, so bloody expensive!! I used to be pampered by this free wi-fi in every spots in Jakarta, even in my previous office and kos! Ridiculous! Internet Oh Internet..why I can't life without u????